Opening to the True Self

this morning without "overthinking" I showered and got dressed and left for yoga class. Not a minute to spare :-)
I am so grateful for such a wonderful class. I so needed that! I stayed afterwards for meditation and I could have just kissed everyone on the street by the time I was done. I walked out of class feeling so wonderful, I took a walk to the bakery. I met 4 people I knew and it felt wonderful to share my openess and good feelings with them.
What came up in class was being open to one self. We go through life giving so much of ourselves - working, taking care of our families, coming up with creative ideas and solutions to challenging issues.
It's a fast-paced world we live in and we mindlessly multi-task our way through it.
Tying my shoes, drinking my coffee and reading emails before I run out the door.
I really don't want to play this game any more, thank you.
What I want to do is check in with myself. "How are you doing today?"
Check in with my body, my feelings... am I on my path? or am I sacrificing some of it for you. Am I getting caught up with the "shoulds" because that is how it has been. Repeating patterns of behavior, just because it has always been that way. Caught in the chaos. Oh, it is so easy to do that this time of year.....
Na. Not buying it anymore.
Instead:
I'm taking my time to be grateful. Do more yoga. Walk more. smile more. Play more.
I am going to allow more.
I am going to allow joy and peace and love, comfort and beauty, blessings that are all around me, into my soul. Be in the present and let life flow. I'm also forgiving myself for my inner turmoil yesterday. I blamed it "out there" but really it was within me. I blew it, but that was yesterday and it's gone. Past. Adios!
Today is a new day and it is good.
I am so grateful for yoga. It's very powerful. Susan is one of the blessings in my life. She is a wonderful, spiritual teacher. She wrote this book (picture) with some illustrations and charts I did for her. It's not a yoga book - that one is next.
Today, I am most grateful for opening, opening my heart to myself. Forgiving myself. Loving myself.
Finding that true path within.
Namaste'