A Sacred Life

A Sacred Life

Saturday, December 29, 2007

Intentions are set....

I am yearning for some time to get messy and do some creating. I did clean out on closet at the Rec where I teach art classes. Nice to see all this "stuff" organized. I still have 2 more closets to empty out and although they gave me only 2 new closets, I am hoping to obtain one more. Ok. The intention is set here. I have 3 new closets! All my supplies are organized so I can be more efficient in finding supplies and teaching. It must be the power of Virgo here.
For myself, I have decided to do some collages for the new year. Every New Year's eve, rather than go out partying, I stay in and journal my intentions of the new year and usually make art. This year I plan on a soul collage. Maybe a few. I have some wonderful new journeys coming up in the new year. Travel and work.
So today, my intention is to go through some magazines which I have been collecting, pulling out those images that reflect who I am and what I love and what I want to move towards. What I want more of in my life.
I feel we are moving into a lots of change this year. Good positive change.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Can't buy me love......

Somewhere in blogland, I came across this link http://www.storyofstuff.com/
Interesting, because we decided not to buy into the whole consumerism christmas deal. Yeah, I know it's nice to let others know that they are appreciated and I like receiving things as well, but there is a big difference to show appreciation with something like homemade chocolate covered nuts and going out to buy something just for the sake of buying something like it's an obligation.
Once upon the time my husband and I went nuts buying things for each other. It seems like that is what Christmas became - all about buying!
I meet people on the street asking me "if I'm ready for Christmas"... ready? ready for what? They want to know if I finished my Christmas shopping... Nope, not this year... not buying it!
(Making it maybe :-)
anyway, take a look at the link for an eye opening perspective.
Give someone a hug and tell them how much they mean to you.
Crea8tiva had this link on her site http://www.organicconsumers.org/articles/article_8509.cfm
so don't forget the little critters either :-)
this inspired me with some ideas...............

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

For You !

After making these dolls with the kids, I had to make one myself. They remind me a bit of the flat self dolls we did as a take off of flat stanley. That was fun. We traveled around the country and sometimes to other countries as a paper doll.
This version had graduated to wood.
Here's my Christmas Wish for all my blogger friends.
May all your dreams come true.
If you believe in them, they will, so
Merry Christmas eYYYYYY


Inside. Warm. Enjoying my coffee while "here".
Listening to the sound of trucks scraping at the ground and that beep beep backing up noise.
Yes. Removing the ice. Men chipping away at it's stubborness.
Thank you.

Monday, December 17, 2007

Just another Manic Monday.............
Chiseled windshield to set wipers free. Chipped away about 5" and took almost 45 minutes.(Someone said to make them stick up away from the car when it snows) Anyway, after chiseling the car windows, I had to get out of my iced in space. I did it. But when I got to my mom's , confronted with ice again and could not get her to the car.
Another therapy appointment cancelled. We did some exercises together and then ate left over desert. (or dessert)
Off to the store for some essentials. Walking veeeeeeery carefully avoiding icy spots.
Home for a "creativity break". I think it will be my Christmas Card. Stay Tuned!
Grab art bag, radio for yoga.. left my mat in the car. Yikes that will be cold!
Class for preschoolers - Textured Triangle Trees and Rudolf candy canes.
Tea break - Tulsi Tea with Pomegranate and green tea. Yum! Laughed about some letters to Santa. won't get into those right now...........
Another art class - mostly boys (2 girls). What the ?!? Bouncing off the walls! Not possible to sit still... Way too much energy in this room!!! We made our gingerbread bird houses... very cute. Clean up and then Yoga.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh. relax, stretch, "open to the sun, so it will melt this ice". Grace came so she could do meditation and I could leave early. Dinner downtown. (no, not the city)
Parking not so easy, and I decide to move the car from an illegal space onto an ice packed one.
Dinner was delicious and fun. Nice to see everyone. These are the people who make up the Children's Center where I do art with the kids once a week. Nice to share a conversation without being interrupted by a child. Greeted by someone who knew me but I didn't know him. Was I supposed to???
Back home, parked back on top of the ice.
the day is done.
grateful for Sundays :-)

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Thank you

Here is the beautiful print I received in the mail yesterday from Cre8tiva
A wonderful reminder that I'm always guided by my guardian angel.. Thank you Rebecca! I love it.
It was a good mail day yesterday, as my IndieArts dvd also came.
I spent the day with family, eating and laughing. That is what the holidays are about for me. I've rebelled and haven't gone near a shopping mall. We've decided not to do our secret santa gift exchange and I really don't need to go shopping. Any gifts will be bought from a local shop I can walk to or handmade.
I'm not chopping any trees down to decorate my home either. I really don't get that. One year I did buy a potted tree, but it didn't do well in my hot, dry apartment.
What I do love is to share my creative idea with the kids. That's where my energy goes and I love to watch them.
This is a time of love and light. That's my focus.
Many of the online blogging community has chosen to only buy homemade, artists supporting artists. That is what is so great about the whole online community. How we support one another. That is the kind of sharing I love :-)
I'm grateful for this:
I am in a warm, cozy home - protected by the outside, freezing elements. I pray everyone has a warm and safe place to be.
I have my husband here by my side - my best friend/lover/supporter/funny guy who makes my heart sing.
My art room filled with stuff to create in.
My new adventure teaching in a new space. My business is expanding!
Learning and expanding spiritually. Delighted to learn more about Peruvian culture - shamanic teachings - appreciating Mother Earth. Did you ever consider the words "Honor they Mother and Father" as taking care, honoring the Earth as mother and the Sun as Father. It is the sun which brings all life and the Earth that supports us. We MUST honor them.
Start by bringing your own bags to the store - reuse those plastic bags.
And now, my art room calls.................

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

A poem to share

I saw this over at Cre8Tiva's blog and I love this poem she shared on her blog along with a lot of other beautiful Christmas traditions. Such a nice place to visit........go visit her.
This Christmas
(although I think it should be for all time not just Christmas!)
Mend a quarrel...
Dismiss suspicion and replace it with trust...
Write a love letter...
Share some treasure...
Give a soft answer...
Encourage youth...
Keep a promise...
Find the time...
Manifest your loyalty in word and deed...
Forgo a grudge...
Forgive an enemy...
Apologize if you are wrong...
Try to understand...
Flout envy...
Examine your demands on others...
Think first of someone else...
Be kind...
Be gentle...
Laugh a little...
Laugh a little more...
Deserve confidence...
Take up arms against malice...
Decry complacency...
Express your gratitude...
Go to church...(maybe Nature is your church :-)
Welcome a stranger
Gladden the heart of a child..
Take pleasure in the beauty and wonder of the earth...
Speak your love...
Speak it again...
Speak it still once again....
"This Christmas" December 1959 issue of McCall's magazine, written by the editors.
Let's speak our love all the time!!!
My focus for Christmas has been on creating art projects for the kids. It's usually this way every year and I don't mind. By the time Christmas comes around, I'm usually pretty tapped out, though... ready for some rest.. and art for myself!
Today we made gingerbread houses from some foam core pieces I disassembled from a center piece. They were already in the shape of a house, so I was good to go on that one. Saved me a trip to the art store. They came out really cute and of course I forgot to take a picture. Next class.

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Grateful for this day!

Such a great day :-)
Deeply Grateful:
1 -Yoga class. Such a great class! Thanks to Susan (I just posted about this)
2 -My husband. We stopped by the High School which had a craft fair and he bought me some cool jewelry. It was nice to hang out today. So grateful for being able to share my life with him.
3 -Books. Books. Books. and the internet. I love learning. Today at the show, I had a discussion with this guy about gemstones (which led me to learn some more and found some good info... )Reading The Four Winds: A Shaman's Odyssey into the Amazon by Alberto Villoldo... such a great book!
4 - Movies that entertain and make us laugh....and they just may have a positive message for us.
5 - Sharing time with like-minded friends. Supporting and encouraging each other on this journey.
6 - grateful for my comfy bed to which I am now going..........
You can share your gratitude here with others at this site

Opening to the True Self

this morning without "overthinking" I showered and got dressed and left for yoga class. Not a minute to spare :-)
I am so grateful for such a wonderful class. I so needed that! I stayed afterwards for meditation and I could have just kissed everyone on the street by the time I was done. I walked out of class feeling so wonderful, I took a walk to the bakery. I met 4 people I knew and it felt wonderful to share my openess and good feelings with them.
What came up in class was being open to one self. We go through life giving so much of ourselves - working, taking care of our families, coming up with creative ideas and solutions to challenging issues.
It's a fast-paced world we live in and we mindlessly multi-task our way through it.
Tying my shoes, drinking my coffee and reading emails before I run out the door.
I really don't want to play this game any more, thank you.
What I want to do is check in with myself. "How are you doing today?"
Check in with my body, my feelings... am I on my path? or am I sacrificing some of it for you. Am I getting caught up with the "shoulds" because that is how it has been. Repeating patterns of behavior, just because it has always been that way. Caught in the chaos. Oh, it is so easy to do that this time of year.....
Na. Not buying it anymore.
I'm taking my time to be grateful. Do more yoga. Walk more. smile more. Play more.
I am going to allow more.
I am going to allow joy and peace and love, comfort and beauty, blessings that are all around me, into my soul. Be in the present and let life flow. I'm also forgiving myself for my inner turmoil yesterday. I blamed it "out there" but really it was within me. I blew it, but that was yesterday and it's gone. Past. Adios!
Today is a new day and it is good.
I am so grateful for yoga. It's very powerful. Susan is one of the blessings in my life. She is a wonderful, spiritual teacher. She wrote this book (picture) with some illustrations and charts I did for her. It's not a yoga book - that one is next.
Today, I am most grateful for opening, opening my heart to myself. Forgiving myself. Loving myself.
Finding that true path within.

Friday, December 07, 2007

New Moon article

this article is from www.MoonCircles.com and thought it so beautiful and relevate for me that I wanted to post it here as a reminder as well as to share it.

Sagittarius New Moon Meditation: Pilgrim Souls By Pythia Peay

At this New Moon, the sun and moon are joined together in the fire sign of Sagittarius, signaling the start of the holiday season. The lively crackle of conversation; the warm humor and expansive goodwill; the generous giving of gifts: these are among the qualities of Sagittarius. Yet like the sparkly wrapping that conceals a precious gift, the real treasure at the heart of this outgoing sign is its devotion to truth.
Ruled by Jupiter, the ever-roving ruler of Olympus, those born under the sign of Sagittarius are, as the poet Yeats wrote, "pilgrim souls" -- lifelong seekers in pursuit of the priceless pearl of eternal wisdom. Thus it is that time of year to follow in the footsteps of the wise men and embark upon our own pilgrimage, guided by the star of truth that shines the way forward.
The Pilgrim Soul Within
The mystical traditions of the world teach that life is a journey - a passage to a mysterious destination. The ancient Sufis pictured the journey of life as a caravan of seekers content to live lightly on the earth, storing up instead the treasures of the soul.
"God's creation is vast -- why do you sit all day in a tiny prison?" wrote Rumi, "Go beyond your little world and find the grandeur of God's world." From the practical CEO to the responsible parent, there is a part of each of us that is a happy wanderer, a pilgrim soul in search of truth.
To connect to the pilgrim soul within, picture yourself shedding your everyday clothes and, along with them, the outer persona that you rely upon to interact with the world. Stripped of all pretense and guise, imagine next that you don a pilgrim's robe - plain, sturdy, and hooded to symbolize your freedom from the strictures of individual identity. Released from the cares and responsibilities of your daily life, a feeling of unbounded possibility descends; you feel gripped by a state of readiness. Departure on the trip of a lifetime is imminent.
Then, imagine that a call comes: it could be the sound of a bell ringing in gentle overtones; the tinkle of camel bells signalling arrival of a caravan of Sufi dervishes; the echo of a summons to join a band of wandering monks and nuns. Next, imagine that you have joined up with a band of like-minded pilgrims. Together, you are setting forth on a journey with no end and a path with no destination. Taking up your staff, and girding up your robe, place your foot on the trackless road that opens wide before you. As you do this, a feeling of expansive freedom suddenly envelops you. Everywhere you look - to your right and to your left, behind you and before you - stretches an open horizon. As free as air, a happy wanderer, you traverse the cities and towns, mountains and meadows, of the wide, wide world, encountering fellow seekers and drinking in wisdom from earth's sacred places.
After spending some time on this visionary quest, imagine that suddenly, you find yourself arriving at the place from which you first began. Taking off your robe and folding it as a keepsake talisman, you step back into your old identity and resume once again the challenges of the everyday circumstances you left behind. As the imagery of your spiritual pilgrimage fades, however, something lasting remains - an expansive, unfettered state-of-consciousness. Those situations that once seemed to restrict you, now appear altered when viewed through the new, broader perspective you bring to them. For though you may assume once again your former roles and responsibilities, there now dances within your heart the laughing soul of a pilgrim, for whom life is an endless, delightful journey toward God. The only proof that this is so, is the smile that lingers on your face.
The Star of Truth
What compels perfectly ordinary people to abandon the safety of their lives for the uncertainty of the spiritual path is the search for truth. Amid the sparkle and flash of life, they feel, exists something real and enduring. Like the heavenly star the wise men followed to the Christ child, so, too, does the star of truth guide us to our own eternal nature.
Yet as all true teachers teach, the truth we seek is hidden within our own hearts - the buried treasure found right in our own back yard. To connect to the star of truth within your own heart, begin by centering within a deep, quiet, true, place inside yourself. Concentrate on going deeper, deeper, deeper, as if you are descending down stairs to the basement of your psyche. Suddenly, at the bottom of these stairs, a trap door opens upon a vast universe. There, against the backdrop of a midnight-blue sky, shines a brilliant star - it is a revelation, a five-pointed blaze of diamond-clear illumination. Allow yourself to bask in its light; feel the very cells of your physical body penetrated by its wisdom. Absorb its truth into the center of your being.
Then, begin the journey back up the stairs that lead from the depths of yourself to the upper world of your everyday life. For a few moments, sit quietly, concentrating on this star of truth as it continues to illuminate your heart center. Give thanks to your "north star" - the permanent pole of truth that guides you and that provides a source of limitless wisdom and knowledge.

Did I mention I am going back to Peru!!!!!

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Wellness Wednesday - Rest

I changed my class with the kids from today to tomorrow.... Enough. Sometimes, I have to remind myself that it is time to rest. Replenish the well.
I have the habit of taking on too much. I will change that to HAD the habit... I no longer want that.
My mom would always say, "your eyes are bigger than your stomach" which is why buffets are dangerous. I want it all!! I want to taste everything... I want to say YES. YES!
But I can't do it all. At least not at the same time :-)
Yes, I want to create art everyday, be grateful, stay well, and live a sacred life - everyday. Wellness Wednesday is there as a reminder, as is Sacred Sunday, Grateful Saturdays and Art Everyday.... reminders for me.
I want to live them everyday and sometimes I don't. I watch my thoughts and find that I am creating, making up, some drama that is not true. I bitch about some jerk that thinks he is cool by driving way too fast. And I forget to be grateful. I forget to be in the present moment.
My mind races with ideas for projects... one after another for classes - until I stop and cannot come up with anything.. a blank.
That is the time to stop.
I'm clean out of giving, putting it out there, and now I will replenish the well by giving myself some time.
Time to be grateful. Grateful for my comfy bed. My wonderful husband. My family and friends. All the wonderful opportunities that have been given to me. Grateful for some time for me.
Today I can focus on balance within so tomorrow I can be in balance for them. When my well is full, I can give to you. But first let me fill it up with gratefullness, care and nurturing. Here is a video that I watched this morning... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b4cV9cVa5sc

Sunday, December 02, 2007

Penguins for Peace

We had a full day yesterday at Holiday Happening. We created sock snowmen and Penguins for Peace. Well, my sample was a Penguin for Peace anyway. They came out really cute and figured snowmen and penguins have no "religion" as this program is for everyone, no matter what you celebrate. I left the sample on Donna's desk as she loves penguins.

I made two more to hang on the door.

It was nice to stay inside and play. Relax. and be grateful for another event done.

No major jobs for the rest of the year, just classes.

This was a good year, with a lot of great projects and a lot of opportunities.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Wellness Wednesday and Gratitude

This is St. Rose of Lima. It was the first image I saw as I walked into the church. mmm. didn't know there was a saint Rose of Lima...and she's holding a book. I love books...and you would know that by walking into our home. There are books everywhere!
Life has been really busy, limiting computer/blogging time. Even my art time.
I spent the day yesterday working with the kids, creating art, taking pictures and thoroughly enjoying myself. I was a bit late and they beat me to class. They were so filled with joy when they saw me coming and it picked me up to the point where I felt all their love entering my body. I love these kids. Aside from being so cute, they are so thoughtful and respectful. I really felt appreciation from them for being there. They love this and so do I. This is one of my blessings, to bring art to these kids.
Following this, I had a great adjustment from the best chiropractor and friend in the world....so good to talk to. So grateful to have her in my life!
Yoga followed that. A new student and as anyone knows who does yoga... it feels soooooooooo good.
And then, to put the icing on the cake, my husband and I spent a wonderful evening talking about lots of things from the wonder of life to my going back to Peru. Yes! He is OK with it.
You see that picture above. That is me at Machu Picchu. I visualized it before I went and it came to be. Now, I am continuing the journey - a sacred journey - to Lake Titicaca.
Grateful? oh yes... so very grateful. I love my husband dearly and the only difficult part is being away from him... but this is a journey for me.
Peru awakened something in me that I cannot ignore and it felt like it was just a taste... Now for another bite!
Life is so very delicious.
So much to be grateful for.
If St. Rose had anything to do with it.......thanks :-)

Monday, November 26, 2007

Taking notice

Now that I have the discovered the extra zoom, I need to play and experiment. Now I need a micro lens. The extra zoom is great, but can get very grainy.

Yesterday on my walk, I stopped by a church to take some pictures and that's when I really got the benefit of the zoom.

What else is on this camera that I don't know about? The funny thing, is that it is on the camera, bold red numbers 12x zoom and it never "clicked"... sheeeeeeeesh.

Good to go out for a walk.

It was a beautiful day.

Clears the head.

My sacredness of the day: being alone in the quietness of this church and really looking at things around me. Cameras have this magic quality about them that get me to really look.... really see what is around me.

Lesson: Pay attention

Be in the present moment more and maybe I'll remember things more often. I thought about this early this morning on awakening. Maybe I don't remember things (movies in particular) because I'm not "there", my mind has wandered off somewhere.

I do notice hearts alot.

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Grateful Saturday

This morning the sun is shining. I did another heart meditation and came away from it with some more insight.
Thankful for that. I even picked The Sun card after that and it seemed to validate what I "saw".
I cleared off my desk and chair and started journaling again. Grateful there wasn't a lot to move.. That is what I need to do, keep journaling. As much as I like to blog, it is not the same with me. I need to write, brainstorm on paper, and even doodle a bit. Today it was a mandala.
Today, I am grateful I don't have to be anywhere at any specific time. No obligations.
Free to take a walk, do some art... whatever comes up, I'm open to it.
A new mural job came up. More gratitude :-)
Books. Dusted off Lama Surya Das's books last night. Good insight into fasting, chanting.. I'm grateful my apartment is like a library :-)
Although, I am looking for something to read. something uplifting, spiritual, artistic, traveling is good... nothing with violence. any suggestions???
Grateful to the blogging community. Thanks for sharing :-)
Go to link below this to join in some Thanksgiving - a continuation of being grateful.

Friday, November 23, 2007

Everyday Yogini: Notes from the Yogini~ The Practice of Gratitude

Everyday Yogini: Notes from the Yogini~ The Practice of Gratitude

Keep Thanking

It's so easy to remember to be thankful when You are reminded about it on days such as thanksgiving... but to make a habit of it is another thing.
Everyday Yogini has gotten me to commit to making it a daily habit. Others have joined as well. I have started Gratitude journals here and there and usually because my "meditation/journal space" either got cluttered or the book got lost in a pile somewhere, it ended with a large pause. My computer space never gets cluttered :-)

No work today, but I had a "mom" day. Took her to therapy, home, back out to have her hair done. She definitely got her exercise today and I'm grateful it didn't rain! It was actually quite nice out, although a bit cold. I dropped off the tiles that I finally finished. They are done!
I'm thankful I have let them go and created some space. I have some SPACE! I worked a little bit on a canvas and plan on doing a little bit more and tomorrow as well.
Thankful that I didn't have to go anywhere near a store!
I have the rest of the weekend to do some art. Art for ME!!!
No obligations.
Sometimes it is just the fact that I don't have to do anything that makes me so very happy and so very thankful.
Thankful that my husband is cooking :-)

Thursday, November 22, 2007


Here's to the blogging world:

Thank you for sharing all your wonderful and inspiring art.

Thanks for putting your heart and soul out there for others to see and to realize that we are not so different from one another.

Thanks for your comments... it feels good to know someone out there is listening.

Through the internet and blogging in particular, the world has become so much smaller and accessible. Doesn't matter what you look like, where you live, or what you have or do... it's a joy to be able to get to know you. Amazing..............

A day to be thankful.. yes, MUCH to be thankful for. For my husband, always there for me, ALL WAYS and Always.

Thankful Jake has a job :-) and he is happy. That is all that matters. As long as you are happy.

Thanks Jessi, that you are there sharing it all with him. Thank you. Thank you. and of course for the Leonard Cohen obsession.......

Thankful for my friends. The special one's I can call for spiritual reflection, for art advice, to get it off my chest, and knowing I don't have to be perfect and you'll like me anyway :-)

Thanks for my family. I'm lucky to have a family so close and lucky to be able to spend the day with them today. And now I have the recipe for the best stuffing in the world, thanks to my mom..........

Thankful for those who give me challenging work, creative work, work that I love to do.

Thankful for clients who are friends and friends who are clients. It makes it easy to work and create for them. So many creative ideas........

I am grateful for my eyes and hands and what they are capable of creating and the beauty that I soak into my body through my eyes... so very grateful for these hands... communicating, creating, holding, grasping and then letting go......

arms to embrace

lips to kiss

tongue to taste (oh so many delicious foods!)

my legs to carry me through out the day.

Grateful for discovering yoga... thank you to all you yoga teachers out there. especially Susan.

Grateful for all those who write books to help us make our lives better... spiritually, artistically, and just for pure enjoyment.

thanks to the Dali Lama for being who you are... so peaceful to look at your face. How could one not smile :-)

Thanks for my camera and all those fantastic photographers out there. I could see parts of the world that I know I will never get to... at least not in this life time.

Thanks for paint and brushes.. another voice for me.
Mother Earth, Pachamama, who carries us upon her and provides for us, thank you, thank you.
Thanks to all you who help protect her.
The sun.
Clouds when there is too much sun..





oh, so much more to be thankful for.....................................

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Am I done?

Finishing touches......

I still need to add bees and a grape leaf or two, but I can "see" where I may need to touch up or adjust this a bit by looking at it on the screen.
For some reason, I can view it from a different perspective. I wonder why that is....
The stem of the bowl looks a bit crooked.
Now, where to put the bee.........

Monday, November 19, 2007

Being Present

from the daily guru...

Monday 19, November 2007

Be here now

"This moment is the moment of reality, of union, of truth. Nothing needs to be done to it or to you for this to be so. Nothing needs to be avoided, transcended, or found for it to be so."

-- Da Avabhasa

Creativity, connection, soul, inspiration and intuition are available only in the present moment for the present moment. We choose how actively we take part in the cosmic dance of life. We can become wallflowers, mere spectators to life, if we get trapped in the patterns and habits of the past. Or we can choose to dance by being present and open to the energies, the opportunities and the guidance available to us each moment.

"Each today, well-lived, makes yesterday a dream of happiness and each tomorrow a vision of hope. Look, therefore, to this one day, for it and it alone is life."-- Sanskrit poem

"You must live in the present, launch yourself on every wave, find your eternity in each moment."-- Henry David Thoreau

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Sacred Sunday

And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
Anais Nin

Opening up to possibilities.
Grateful for my eyes. Grateful for my senses. Grateful for my hands. This is what I need to feel when I don't feel so great.
When I woke this morning, I was in a bit of a funky mood. I didn't get any art done yesterday... and the "should haves" started creeping into my mind.
I ended up shopping, instead. Clay for class (had to use that coupon) and then some other things for the "home".
I went in for shower curtain liner and $98 later.......
I'm thinking it's the last time I'm hitting "the stores" except for art supplies.
I feel as if I've been bombarded with Christmas since Halloween. The stores put everything out so early... and let's face it. It's all about "the stuff".
This year, I want Presence, not Presents.
I want to be able to be in the moment, enjoying it, creating it, cherishing it. Sharing it.
I have enough "stuff" and actually would like to let go of more of it.
I went over to Masterpiece Framing to take a look at the progress of the new "studio" space I will be teaching in.
This is coming to fruition... when I saw it, my mind immediately said, "this is what you asked for" and this is what you are getting.
Thanks Universe :-)
Open to all Possibilities! The creative, peaceful and joyous ones. A studio space. Lots of storage!
Thank you, thank you , thank you................

Friday, November 16, 2007

Sacred and Well

It is the simple things in life that make us happiest.
Watching children discover the magic of color mixing is priceless.
It is one of the things in my life that is truly sacred and make me feel good.
Feeling good is what creates health.
We take so much for granted as we grow older, trying to stuff in as much as we can in a day, and often we go through the day unconsciously.
If I could stop, and be like these children, observing the wonder and magic of watching colors combine to create a new color...
To see as a child sees.
That is what constantly brings me back to "wow, this is all amazing! This planet. Animals. Us!"
I missed Sacred Sunday this week. I cooked up a delicious dinner for my brothers' birthday (born exactly 3 years apart).
Spending time with family.
Wednesday, I did this class. It makes me happy to work with them and that brings wellness into my life..

Saturday, November 10, 2007

New Moon Intentions

Move past the fears that keep me from expressing my creativity to the world.
Yesterday as the moon began it's new phase, I was painting. This was my new moon intention last month and I did go back to painting. Coincidently, a group appeared, having to do with creating everyday for a month and I have used this as a jump start. (see other blog) This group is for a month, and my intentions are to just keep it up. Making it a habit.
This month my intention is to communicate more through my art. The moon, in my 3rd house of communications will be helpful and hoping to have some help and discipline from Saturn who happens to live here in my chart.
Being that it's in Scorpio, I'm sure there will be deep issues appearing, surfacing up from the depths, and that's ok. I'd rather they come up to see the light of day so I can better deal with them. Unearth them!
Today I chose a card, Earth Mother. Her message was that the key to abundance was self-love and love of the earth. Love of Life.
Nurture the creative forces in my life, cultivate the "fields" with love. Manifest my spirit into physical form - my creative work - my art.
Also, as a Mother, to nurture others, especially children and this I recommit myself to doing with each class I teach. Sharing the beauty and love of creating.
All with a compassionate heart.

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Be Well :-)

I had the preschoolers today. We painted on some foamcore scraps and then embellished. It was towards the end of class when I remembered the camera... it was fun. I had fun observing what they come up with.
Afterwards, I came home to do some painting myself.
Now for a cup of tea and then off to yoga.
Wellness Wednesday. Time for me :-)
Painting (so far) here

One day later....

I received this from the Daily Om. It is part of my horoscope for today. In light of the meditation below this post, I was one day ahead of myself and right on track :-)
"You also may be ready to stretch yourself beyond your current limits. Another possibility is that you are tired of hiding and are ready to share yourself and your gifts with the world. You were given the skills and talents that you have so you could share them with others and make the world a better place."
Taking it as a validation.
The thought occured to me this morning getting out of the shower... "how can I exhibit in the library"... why I had that thought is that I am the person who runs the show in obtaining artist to exhibit there. Artists are juried and therefore this is a conflict of interests... unless I can get someone else to do it for me :-)
Or is there another venue?
Oh, Universe........

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Heart Meditation- Shine

I did another heart meditation this morning.

After a few deep breaths, I go into my heart. I'm finding it interesting how I get in. This time, there was a slit in my heart and I just spread it open and walked in. It was more realistic this time, being in my heart, watching the walls throbbing and hearing it beat strongly. Soon I saw a drummer beating his rhythm on the drum matching the rhythm of my heart. His message to me was to keep rhythm with life, with the seasons, with nature.

I walked into the next chamber, lower right, and entered a garden. I went to an apple tree and began to pick apples, placing them into a basket. "Apples are good for your heart". Eat to cleanse the system. Time for a clearing out, getting rid of the old. Eat a cleansing diet.

I walked up a ladder, feeling my hands on each rung, pulling myself up through a hatch into my upper left chamber. It was filled with beautiful crystal chandeliers, a table set with beautiful china. It was overflowing with abundance of beautiful things, but they were in an attic. The message was to let the beauty out, let it shine rather than hiding it. All this is meant to be used and shared, not hidden away.

I walked into the right upper chamber, just stepping over easily into it. I saw a baby. A newborn all swaddled up, but it had a light, a halo around it. I thought it was Christ, but then more babies appeared and they all had halos. They kept multiplying and soon they were young children and we joined hands in a large and continuously growing circle, expanding and aging all at the same time. Soon we were all old and began to die falling to the ground like seeds.

It gave me something to ponder. Looking at humanity as seeds.

What kind of seed are you?

What will be reaped from your existance on Earth?

What fruits do you bring to the table?

Interestingly, I chose an angel card after this meditation and the card was "Light".

"Acknowledge the Light that you are. Share that Light with the world. Activate your own inner light and be aware of its uniqueness."

Imagine if we all shared the Light within us, fearless in sharing our true inner Self, sharing the gifts we have openly with others...

In the words of Buddha:

"Meditate. Live purely. Be quiet. Do your work with mastery. Like the moon, come out from behind the clouds"

Sunday, November 04, 2007

sacred sunday - dreams

I didn't want to go to bed without mentioning something I am grateful for or find sacred. Right now, being tired, I am thankful for my bed and the book I'll maybe read before falling asleep.

Actually, it is the dreams that I'm grateful for.

I love dreaming.

I love waking in the morning and journaling them, analyzing them, and taking what inspiration I can from some and create, whether it be a painting or shrine or just a sketch. I enjoy recording them in some way and then looking back months and years later.

I was reading a dream I had months before in a journal in a parking lot in Colorado. We happened to be stuck there, living in a Volkswagen bus. What I was reading was a description of what I was seeing around me, like it was some premonition and from then on, I never took my dreams lightly.

I still remember childhood dreams.

Lately, I've been inspired to paint from them.

Last night's dream will soon appear in some form on the canvas.

Sacred Sunday is about the dreams. The ones we escape to at night and the one's that live in our heart. Follow them.
Nope. Not here... go HERE :-)

Saturday, November 03, 2007

My Sacred, Creative Life :-)

A day of painting. Grateful.

Cloudy. Chilly. Supposed to get some noreaster with a lot of rain, although we haven't gotten anything yet. Even though, a good day to stay in and paint. I've gone and put my daily art on the other blog, (look to the side bar please) playing along with another group of artists here.

So far, this is what I've done....... two 8x10's. When the Daily devotions group was active, I realized I really need a push and why, I really don't know. I can get pretty lazy. Thing is -if I love it, why do I not do this every spare moment I have? Mysteries of life...
anyway, it's day 3 and I've done something everyday because I need to be accountable to someone (?) or some group. When I participated in Daily devotions group, I did a lot of small pen and watercolors. My goal with this group is to paint on canvas again and maybe play with collage as well, but mostly paint, because that is the medium that speaks to me the most.
Back into the habit.... oh yeah.......

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

A scary story

I needed to go out to get some paint but kept getting side-tracked with the computer and all you wonderful bloggers out there. I was actually reading one blog when I heard a rather disturbing noise outside. Uh-oh. My computer is near the window that offered a view of people coming out onto the street. A car accident. Not good. Quick to the rescue were ambulances and police and fire engines. All were blocking the driveway, so I knew I was walking to get the paint. I didn't know the extent of it until I went outside, or rather to my door where I saw a car on the sidewalk in front of it. Holy *#@! The car came up onto the sidewalk and went through the window of the hair salon downstairs. I prayer those involved are ok, but truth be told,
I was happy I had procrastinated and not gone out a bit earlier when I had planned on. It makes one wonder about life. Is it an intuitive thing, or just a matter of timing or just plan ol' luck! So, I went out grateful for every step I was taking... and ran into a few delightful things.....
This is the inside of his store. He said he had to pull his client out of the chair as the car was coming at them! Now THAT'S a scary story!!!!
Have a safe and happy Halloween


For Wellness Wednesday, I have been giving mindfulness some attention. I don't want to do a lot of little things unconsciously, but rather give my full attention to one thing. Sometimes this is hard to do when you have a lot to juggle, but when time allows it, I want to focus in on what I am doing with my full attention.

I want to eat with full attention, mindful of what I am putting in my mouth. If I am mindful, I can be grateful for what it is I'm eating and where it came from. I didn't grow that butternut squash myself. Someone else did. Someone packed it up, someone unloaded it from a truck and placed it on the shelf at Trader Joe's so I can buy it, cook it and eat it. Thank you. Thankful for the farmer's market for those nectarines too!

We are so much into multi-tasking in order to fit it all in a day, but are we savoring each moment when we do that? If I am eating, while reading, I'm not being mindful of what I am eating.

It comes down to self love. If I love myself, I will honor my body and take care of it by putting healthy things into it. (Chocolate has antioxidants, so that works for me)

While I'm at it, being mindful of what comes out of my mouth is just as important as what goes into it :-)

I decided today to finish up one project rather than scatter my attention on 3 different ones. If I can just finish one, I'll have a better sense of accomplishment. I can check it off my list.a

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Life is Good

I love this note from the Universe...
Long, long ago, before there was even sand in the hourglass, there was a teeny, tiny dot, Doreen -- so small it was virtually invisible -- that was presented to you as a gift. At first, puzzled and perplexed, you thought it was a joke. Yet, trusting and inquisitive, your intuition led you to accept it and, before long, to carefully examine it.
And lo, after becoming extraordinarily teeny and tiny yourself, you found there was an entrance of sorts into this little treasure, in the form of a long and winding path. So inside you went, through the densest grove of ancient, moss-covered, bending oaks you will ever see. And before long, you found a shiny, gold, old-fashioned key that had been left upon a large, rounded stone, as if especially for you.
With key in hand you proceeded down the path until you arrived at a massive gate. Just above it there was a handwritten plaque for all who might pass beneath it:"Welcome to the Jungles of Time and Space, Where nothing is as it seems, yet all things are possible. Should you ever feel lost or weary, Forget not from where you have come, And follow the signs..."
Peering between the wrought iron bars, you could see the entire Milky Way Galaxy and a hundred billion galaxies beyond it. Your thoughts raced, your imagination ran wild, and as you raised your key to the sturdy, reinforced lock, slowly slipping it in, and gently turning... there was a sudden flash of light and burst of sound. Whereupon, seemingly light-years later but, in fact, no longer than an instant, you found yourself in the most beautiful human form, living on the most beautiful little planet, having a wonderful life, a wrinkle of curiosity on your brow, reading this very Note, right here and now, as Doreen Grozinger.
Talk about a sign -

The Universe

Today I want to be filled with awe in all that I see in this beautiful magnificent world.

Today I want to be filled with good cheer and spread that cheerfuness to all that I come in contact with, online and off.

Today I will take "awareness" breaks, so I can be fully conscious of what is going on within me and around me.

Monday, October 29, 2007

Sometimes I find these pretty lame quizes but do them anyway... but it is pasting the code that brings out the crazy, determined part of me. I'm going to figure this out if it takes allllll day!
Now that I took way too much time for this, I'm off to do what needs to be done - Trader Joes for coffee and maybe some Yogi tea :-)

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Sunday, October 28, 2007

Sacred Sunday - Revisiting the Heart

Yesterday, I had asked to Universe to listen up about moving into a larger place. I received a postcard in the mail: Artists: Riverfront Living Where you Belong! It's a homemade postcard from someone selling their condo on the Hudson River. It even offers a finder's fee.

Too far north for me (cold winters). So to be more specific Universe, I would like to stay around here where I have a lot of work :-) But thanks for responding so quickly.

Today I revisited my Heart Meditation.

I first saw my painted heart which turned into a cartoonish, paper heart. Thin and fragile. Opening the wobbly, paper door, I stepped inside a room. Radiator. comfy chair and lamp. A bit Mary Englebreit-ish. Warm and safe and cozy. I picked up a large, old fashion suitcase and walked into the next (right) chamber. Paris? mmmm don't question it... just go with it. I saw myself painting. oh yes, Paris reminds me of a gathering of artists, exploring new territory, new styles. Open to learn, study.

Try something new! and Just Do It!

I took the escalator up, suitcase in hand. Like Samantha Brown going up the escalator at the airport...

I enter an attic. First my mom's, then more of an antique store, rummaging through old, fragile papers that crumble with my touch. This is not the place to be. No answers here. It's past, done, gone.

I step through to the next chamber and come face to face with a person standing there before me. It is me. She touches my shoulders. I touch her back. We reflect and then hug, hug so deeply she enters inside of me.
It's all inside of me. I have the answers within me and just need to quiet my self to listen to my Higher Self. God is within.

I felt joy and my arms opened and danced. Danced with JOY!

Today, is about being more spontaneous and allowing. No planning. Just being. Feeling. Allowing. Be open to spontaneity!

Saturday, October 27, 2007



and it's raining out.
Sometimes I like that combination. I don't feel guilty staying inside because I really do need to take care of stuff. I really, really need to do them. NO MORE PROCRASTINATING.
In the meanwhile, I was just thinking about The Law of Attraction...
and the people I attract in my life.
No accidents here.
Even in the blogging world, I so enjoy discovering new blogs, especially the ones that make me laugh out loud. There are so many I resonate with. So many creative, spiritual people with great blogs...Of course this is one of the reasons some of the work that needs to be done doesn't.... (I'm addicted :-)
Clients too. Taking a look at the clients I have, they too are a bit on the eccentric side. Clients I have painted for ask for a lot of unique things. I've done some really cool furniture and wall murals that are not so typical. I love doing the unique, out-of-the-ordinary stuff. It's what inspires me and I love going into homes that reflect the clients personality. Fun looking at their collections, their art, what they are attracted to. One client has the most whimsical art in her home in every room that makes her house fun and warm and welcoming.
I don't have a house, but a rather small apartment. Not much wall space left to put anything else up, so what I would really like to attract is a bigger place, more space to put my artwork up. More space to work in.
Listen up Universe!
Now I am going to create :-) and do those projects that need to get done.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Heart Meditation

Wellness Wednesday.

I have been meditating/journaling in the mornings for a little bit.

This idea came to me about meditating on my heart. It came about because I had a cough and didn't sleep well for 3 nights and was working a LOT. It was a cough with a "tickle" in my throat rather than a deep congested cough (which came later). Louis Hay says for a cold, "too much going on at once- mental confusion. small hurts"

Throat and heart area. These two areas were being compromised, so I looked to these 2 chakras to see what was being unexpressed. Where was I lacking joy, my desires?

I started to list my desires and then I visualized my heart.

After seeing my heart, I visualized a door.

This door was on the left side of my heart. I entered and saw myself hanging a painting. I also saw myself painting with large sweeping strokes, as in a mural. What did this represent? my immediate thought was "to bring beauty into the world". This makes me happy. Doing my art.

I went to the right side of the heart. There was more room here and my thoughts went to "clearing out, letting go to open for the new". Is my congestion coming from that? Let go of old out-dated ideas and behaviours, release the past. I need to de-clutter more.

Next I went to the upper chamber of my heart on the left side, but I went there from the outside of my heart, up a ladder and through a window. This triggered the dream of the butterflies I had. It was my transformation dream where I saw my bedroom with a huge cocoon, from ceiling to floor, like a tent. Inside this "tent" was filled with many cocoons that transformed into caterpillars. I closed the window so they wouldn't get cold and went to the kitchen to get them some fruit.

Nourish my dreams was my message.

Upper right chamber of the heart. It was empty. But I went to the walls of my heart and noticed some blemishes. I began to smooth them away and saw people in my life that hurt me or I hurt them and said "I'm sorry" as I smoothed away the blemishes. I forgave everyone I could think of and forgave anyone that I hurt that I was unaware of and most importantly forgave myself. I ended this meditation with my arms out wide hugging a room full of my yoga students.

When I did the meditation again this morning, I saw the heart with a roof. My heart was my home.

Again, I entered in through the bottom, through a door on the left. It was warm and I found myself in the past with my father taking care of him. I did not want to do this, and found myself wincing, but I also saw it as very humbling.

I stepped into the right lower chamber into a garden. There's the beauty again! (although this time on the right side) It felt very fresh. This time I went up a stairway across to the upper left chamber (rather than the window) and I found myself at my grandmother's house, on the second floor with another dream. It was a dream I had as a child, that I could float down the stairs if I could see the colored dots. It was a magical dream. Then I saw myself eating with my grandmother. She always had food. She nurtured me, she nurtured all of us.

This brought a smile to my face.

I found going to the next, right chamber, more difficult. There was resistance as I was pushing my face into the wall of my heart, until it broke through. I squeezed the rest of my body through, not unlike giving birth. I found myself in a big empty gallery. I immediately thought of Leo Castelli's gallery in the city. But it was empty and then realized.... I could create anything I want. I saw my work hanging on the walls. They were not just paintings, but all kinds of art. Shrines and dolls and collages, my small watercolors... all of it filling the wall (which is very big).

So that is what I am offering for Wellness Wednesday. Try a heart meditation. Keep a journal close by. Maybe diagram your heart into four chambers and go in and take a look around.

I'm curious what I'll find on my next visit.

Monday, October 22, 2007

Warm. Sunny. Happy.

A most unusual treat for everyone.
A warm day. mid 70's.
No chilled fingers this year!!

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Mercury Retrograde

All the children that signed up and then some where put on a window. It ended up close to 290 kids. Proud of myself for getting them all squeezed on a window and what happens today???... one business had to bow out. Oh yeah, this freaked me out. I assigned 13 children to that store, but they ended up with a gaping hole in the front of their store and some construction going on the back and understandably could not have children paint there.
Oh shit was my only thought. Where am I going to put them.
Happy ending though. I made some window smaller, found another store and a few people had to cancel, so it worked out. Another beneficent planet ?or maybe a guardian angel helped to counteract this.
Grateful but tired.
And so very warm out. The trees are barely changing and I was sweating walking around as I was marking windows. Some stores had there air conditioners on. Feels more like early September here on the east coast. And although this is strange, I was grateful for the weather as I had to draw white boxes for the children to paint in and it's no fun to do this in the cold. Sunday is supposed to be nice too.
oh, life is so very good, even with Mercury playing havoc!

***footnote ;-)
ok, so it wasn't all Mercury... it was URANUS too!

Expect the unexpected
This can be a somewhat disruptive influence, during which you are subject to sudden upsets or to behavior that is upsetting to others. Under this influence it is quite likely that you will not follow your normal routine as on other days. There could be an automobile breaking down unexpectedly, a sudden argument or an unexpected separation from someone. The point is that you can expect the unexpected today. You are striving to break down your everyday routine, and it would be best to find ways of doing this intentionally, rather than waiting for it to happen. Let the restless spirit within you express itself. You need new air! You may very well discover a valuable aspect of yourself that you never knew existed, because you were afraid to let it come out.
The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:Sun Square Uranus , exact at 15:36 activity period from 17 October 2007 to 19 October 2007.

Wings of Love

A reminder of my new moon intention. This card sits at my meditation/sacred space where I do morning pages, journal and just ponder the universe....
I love this deck and book. Two sisters, Pamela and Joyce Eakins created Tarot of the Spirit.
A validation for me when I chose this card, that this is what I need to bring my focus to. Some highlights of what is written:
"... forever engaged in the search for intuitive knowledge - and the search for meaning. .. determined to create art, which will communicate his deepest feelings.
Through creating art and encouraging others to do so as well, he delivers the gift of ideas and opportunities as well as self-love and self-discovery. Water brother strives to conquer his own needs and desires through translating what he finds in the stream of the unconsciousness into art and he encourages everyone .. to tune into that stream in order to make the most of their creative talents."

So I encourage everyone to use your creative talents to bring love and beauty into the world today.
I use art to let people know who I am, as well as to help me see my Self, the deeper Self that may lie hidden and wants to be let out. Set it free, set that spirit of who you are free for all the world to see how magnificent we all are. How we are all connected. How we are all part of the One Divine.. the Divine ONE.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

You are The Empress
Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.
The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.
The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Wellness - letting go

After having the kids come for art, 2 classes of 15 kids each, printing shapes and having fun and getting all messy.....
I marked windows until about 2:30 and then gave myself some me time before heading back out to do a yoga class.
I did eat breakfast and I did take some vitamins and I did know when to say, "enough" and head home for a bit of a rest.
Wellness today also came in the form of delegation. I tend to take on too much, feeling that if it's going to get done right, I have to do it myself. Afraid if I let it go, it might not get done right or maybe not at all. letting go. It's hard sometimes. I want it all to be perfect. I want it all to go smoothly. I put in a lot of time, effort and sacrifice to leave it to someone else to possibly f**k up. This is not good. I am not good at delegating something I know I can do well. But today I did let go and got some feedback from it as well.
I come across as being a perfectionist and I think I scare people into being afraid of doing it wrong, not meeting my expectations. It came as a joke, in a light-hearted matter today, but it opened my eyes. So I had an attitude shift about it and made light of it, having some humor about my self and that no, I am not perfect. I just want things to be done as well as they could be. I have high work ethics and I expect it from others as well. No slackers please. Just do the best you can and I will be accepting of it.
I really need to let go of this having to do it myself.
"If you want it done right, you might as well do it yourself".... did my father say that all the time? where did I get this from? It's imbedded deep within me and I want it out. I want to hand things over to "you" and not carry it all myself thank you.
I let some things go today. That was good. Out of my hands.
I took care of myself.

And then there was the pleasure of watching children create. My joy. I love watching them, seeing the pleasure they get from creating. Observing their focus and discoveries.
I am full when I can see them like this.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Sacred Sunday - doing it for them

mmmmm. so I am thinking, here I am working all day, no, all weekend and what can I find sacred in that.
Ok. It's for these kids. This is a pretty big event and we usually have more kids than windows. Each year it starts out that way, but for whatever reason... maybe someone needs to drop out, or I squeeze one in where I didn't think I could, everyone manages to get on a window and happily paints. (even parents).
It makes for a very happy and festive day, the whole town alive with children and adults having a great time.
So what I am grateful for is that I can do this from home, with a cup of tea, warm, papers spread out on the table, juggling who wants to be where and with whom. It's work, but I know enough to place them close to where they live or at a window that would be the appropriate height for them and I just keep at it.... I'm guess I'm at about 200, maybe a little more. Still more to do, but it will wait for tomorrow.
It's all for the kids..........and art.